Monthly Archives: May, 2014

Upgrading My Emotional Firmware…

For those of you that look at the title of this post and are thoroughly confused, I apologize. I’m an IT Technician and this is how I think… quite often actually. Essentially, with everything that has happened in the last 3 – 4 months, I find that it’s time for me to really upgrade the base functioning software for my brain…

Jane’s first relationship (I put it in quotes because it was a long distance deal… and Rose is all the way across the country) with a woman… is pretty much over. For those of you MonoMinded folks out there that are going through the same struggles as I am are possibly saying “Hey?! Isn’t this… what you wanted? Isn’t this… you know… ideal? To get things back to how they where?” and I would say to you… NOOOOPE

Watching your spouse deal with anything that makes them sad can be a challenging thing. Your automatic response is to console and make things right. You want to take the pain away… ease the hurt… In typical situations, you, as the spouse, are the go to… the one that can console them… but what happens when you have to help your spouse through a breakup? Continue reading →

You & Me

Not necessarily a poly themed story mind you.. but hot none the less… Love this writing style..

And Then She Moaned

I’m there. I’m waiting… waiting for you to see. Your eyes turn and catch the rose petals… a path leading you upstairs.

“Honey?” You call.

I stay quiet. Waiting.

I hear your footsteps as you ascend the stairs. I can feel your excitement before you even come in the room…. The door opens slowly and I see you look in. My heartbeat quickens, and a sexy smile crosses my face as I watch your face transform.

I am laying there, an oversized Batman shirt with lace boy shorts. Every geeks dreams. My hair is tumbling around me, like a red sea. Candles burning all over the room. I cock an eyebrow in your direction. I don’t have to say anything, my eyes say it all. Your mouth is hanging slightly open, your nostrils flaring.

I slink across the bed towards you, beckoning you with my finger. You are no sooner…

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Lost in Translation

Since deciding to address the root of my insecurities, my life has taken an added step of flipping upside down. Jane has been suffering from MASSIVE migraines and we aren’t sure what’s been going wrong. And with this… it’s also brought up ANOTHER set of insecurities and/or jealousy that I’ve been trying to face: When Jane hurts… I’m not the only one that she turns too for comfort anymore. But there is ONE more layer that we’re going to talk about today… False Interpretations.

I’m a fucking bonehead.

When I took Jane to the hospital the first time her headache was too much to handle, she was in so much pain. It was bad, and I was worried (as I normally am when she gets REALLY sick because she’s an extremely strong woman with an equally strong pain tolerance). I look to my right as I’m driving and saw what appeared to be Jane chatting with Rose. And I instantly got agitated. You see, this is the first time that I felt I was experiencing my wife checking in with her other partner… letting her know she was okay but that we were going to the hospital, etc. And I didn’t know how to feel about it. But the emotions of being worried for Jane’s well being mixed with my insecurities  that I was no longer the only one she would need to check in with… was a mixture for something, at that moment, that was not good. And I felt like a jackass too because while Jane was dealing with her illness, she also could see the emotion on my sleeve… and asked me about it. I personally feel that she shouldn’t have to deal with my emotional issues while she’s got an IV going and at the same time trying to calm a rager of a headache. But she muscled through and did anyway. Continue reading →

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